Why do some people dislike rap and hip hop music despite there being poor quality music in every genre?

Because I'll tell you why, some people dislike rap now but liked rap in the past. I think the reason why some people pass on rap later on is because they realize that it covers and fakes out a real part of them? Like for example one of the funnest activities for people that like rap is cruising around in their ugly cars with their windows down? And blasting and I'm talking about like blasting rap music and spending hundreds and thousands of dollars sometimes on systems sound systems in their cars just so they can play their rap music. But when they open the door and they get out, they still feel like the rap music is playing and they're pretty much starring in their own rap music video that makes them feel really cool? Like you know how like things slow down and you got the slow-mo in the video and you got your bling bling and you got your facial hair cut out like DJ Khaled? And you're slamming your doors thinking like you're all badass and you're all cool and you're sexy stuff? Well imagine starting to dislike rap or just not listening to rap at all! Play that scene over again that I just told you about without the rap music playing inside of your head or in your cars. So do the slow mo part you know the slow-mo parts that a lot of rap videos they have? Minus the actual rap music playing inside of your head or the car. So on a real level, you know what I mean? You get what I'm trying to get at? You see where I'm trying to go with this? You know what I mean? Do you realize that you were not even cool in the first place. Like you thinking you're all badass with your windows rolled down and going through another McDonald's Taco Bell or McDonald's drive-thru and ordering another Chicken McNugget set and blasting out rap music and scaring all the elderly people and then getting out of your car thinking you're closing your door like some badass guy or something but I'm not trying to be like completely mean you know what I mean? I'm trying to be as nice as possible you know what I mean what I'm saying is that, there's a Time to have winter and there's a Time to have summer. There's a time to get real and a time to go on vacation. And the getting real part is really difficult for a lot of people to do because they imagine themselves as someone else 101% of the time for some weird reason. They either don't like themselves or they like themselves a little too much. So the getting real part is really difficult for a lot of people I think because you're so used to thinking that you're so badass that it's hard to accept failure on a different level. So because it bothers you, you either want to go to the liquor store and you want to get another bottle of liquor and get drunk to accept the fact that your imagined badass self has just failed and whatever it is so now you need some way to cope with it. So the problem I see with a lot of rap if you listen to too much rap because of the fact that rap is made for the hyping process. Is because when things start to get real and you realize that you're not as amazing or overly badass like they are trying to make you believe, you're coping mechanisms may not be able to perform to the level of disappointment that you feel inside of yourself. So more than likely if you have a disabled coping mechanism or if you have coffee mechanisms that are unable to handle the level of disappointment inside of yourself, then guess what you might turn to and guess what you might do? You might try to cope with those kinds of failures in really bad ways different bad whatever ways. So that's one of the reasons why you should not hype yourself up too much all the time because it's like your brain is a thousand miles ahead well actually I should correct myself. Your feelings are A thousand Miles ahead. But the actual level of success or reality or whatever it is you're trying to live by, is not a thousand miles ahead. It's not hand in hand with your excitement and your emotions and stuff like that. So when you're hyping yourself up, it feels good for the moment and I understand that because like sometimes when you're exercising, you need something for the moment to get through the toughness of exercising. But you're not going to be exercising all the time which means that you don't need to hike yourself and over excite yourself all the time. Because you need to be able to constantly be aware on a real level who you really are as well as your weaknesses as well as your experiences as well as how you perceive things etc etc. Because you are not going to perceive things exactly the way a rap artist perceives things or rather raps about things. Even though for example a rap artist might sound like he's a certain way, he may not actually be that way in real life. Because they're trying to profit from their music. They're not trying to make another best friend. You know how like there are people that already have best friends? And they're not looking for another best friend because they already have one? Think of that as your favorite rap artist. They already have a best friend or several best friends. They are not coming out with another album so that they can give out free music and make another best friend. They're trying to capitalize on their albums because those studios that they go to and the equipment that they have? And the cameraman as well as the choreographers, that all requires money. They need to be able to pay those people in order for them to shoot the music videos as well as help them to make the rap songs that they make. Which means that they're not really focusing first and foremost on making another best friend. Which means that every rap song that you listen to, you need to take it with a grain of salt and realize that even though they might be rapping about one thing, that doesn't mean that the rap artist is actually that way in real life. Which means that you have to realize that and you yourself needs to get real as well. You have to realize that being hyped up and excited all of the time may only cover up your weaknesses and make them more of a Target to people who have been real for a long time. So weak people, they might view things with the glass half full. They might still be able to view things with the glass half full. Even though they are weak and have a lot of weaknesses, they're still fully capable of viewing life through pretty pink lenses. Because they have gotten so used to masking their real selves with something easy. Something like music or something like certain movies or certain TV shows or certain you know what I mean? You're understanding what I'm trying to get out right? It's like one of those here's another example I can give you, it's like one of those people that comes to Las Vegas okay? And it's kind of like The hangover but not really The hangover movie? They come in and they think they're badass. They think because they have come to Las Vegas that they are the baddest badass of all badasses. And in the short run a lot of people have been able to be a badass in the short run, the thing about visiting Las Vegas is that it's easy to take that plane and leave. The more challenging situation is when you actually live here. And you have to wake up in Las Vegas over and over again constantly possibly being bombarded or being the target of advertisement for gigantic casinos that constantly make billions of dollars per year etc. The challenge that comes with living in Las Vegas is that you cannot be hyped up over excited all the time. You have to be able to stop using your muscles stop moving stop looking around everywhere stop freaking out if you are wanting to survive and make money at the same time while you live in a place like Las vegas. You have to be beyond badass. You cannot think of yourself as more able than you really are. Well actually let me correct that, you cannot think of yourself as being better than you actually are because it will come around to hurt you later on. You have to constantly be aware of your abilities as well as your weaknesses and you have to be able to realize your mistakes and correct them within a matter of seconds if you are doing certain things. And you have to self control yourself all the time because no one else is going to do it for you. As well as do your own money management as well as doing your own playing as well as doing your own living as well as doing your own eating cooking drinking exercising and all of that. Like for example me, I live here in Vegas but I also play at the same time. And I know everyone already realizes that I play because first of all, why would I actually move here if I didn't intend to play something. You have to realize that just because you tell yourself that you are not going to go to the casino and at the same time you live here, for someone like me that is not being real. That is not being realistic either. Somewhere like Las vegas, you have to constantly be not only just self aware but you're doing everything by yourself sometimes. Unless you're working with like friends or like a crew or something but for example a lot of poker players, they work by themselves. And last year for my taxes, it was my first time ever in my life to report to my tax handler or my tax person and submit all of my wgs as well as win-loss statements etc etc. and it's not going to be easy at first, but once I get the hang of how I can structure my life my daily life especially, I think I can pretty much get the hang of it. But that's not to say it's going to be easy. And just like they told me it would not be easy, it definitely is not easy but what I like about it is that, it's a little bit challenging but also a lot of fun but also I get to so call work wherever I want to at whatever Casino I want to go to. And the casino is basically my office. But not in the cubicle office sense but the casino is my office and just because I'm sitting there alone, does not mean that I'm desperate for attention or so lonely that I need somebody to come and kiss my ass. It means I'm at work. So I have a lot of fun and it definitely is very different type of it's a different type of workplace. And you definitely cannot get carried away with the over excitement and piping up of the casino psychological warfare that they have with me. And you have to be able to be very lenient but very strict with yourself. I've noticed that about me is that there can be times when I'm too strict on myself. And not lenient enough and not flexible enough with my own self. But there can be times when I'm too flexible with myself and not strict enough. And so what's different about living here and doing this thing that I'm doing, is that it Prime's me and it prepares me for a super strong life. A really strong refined life that trains me on so many different levels! I mean so many different levels it's like nothing you can imagine. I mean there are times when I become a little exhausted and I make some failures and then you have to realize that sometimes those failures came not because of how you were doing things as far as the casino goes. As far as like the games go. Sometimes those failures come when you miss something that you should have done on the side like something as simple as maybe eating? Exercising? Sunlight. Sunlight is one of my things is that sometimes when I've been making two mistakes in a row as far as the casino thing goes, something as simple as going outside and getting fresh air and sunlight as well as movement, can be a very easy and quick solution to any of my failures sometimes. not all my failures but a lot of times I realize that I've just been indoors too much and not moving around enough and also the nutrition that I've been having is not good it's not like wholesome. For example a lot of poker players, that are actual professional poker players, a lot of them eat right. They have a lot of like fresh fish and wholesome meals and they also keep up with their workouts. And they don't get drunk or some of them drink sometimes but they don't like get drunk and they definitely cannot use any drugs and a lot of like professional gamblers and professional poker players, they don't even smoke cigarettes! So I'm really glad like I have those things going. You know the basic really important things such as do not smoke cigarettes do not drink alcohol and do not use drugs especially in Las Vegas while I am living here trying to do what I'm trying to do. At the very least I definitely have those things going for me. You know and then number two, my apartment is too small so I'm really hoping that I can perform very well to where I can move myself out of my apartment now into I'm looking at apartments across the street. They're much newer and the insides look very nice. And they got like an island kitchen and stuff like that. And high ceilings. So I'm hoping that I can perform you know a lot better and I can get myself into a new apartment. And I also need to be able to manage my stress levels better than what I've been doing. Because my apartment is older, I really don't like taking baths inside of them? So I like taking my hotel stays my free hotel stays, and using their bathtubs. I pretty much only just check in to Vegas casinos because of their tubs. If I was able to use my Vegas casinos because of their tubs. If I was able to use my tablet my Vegas casinos because of their tubs. If I was able to use my bathtub at my apartment, I probably would not be checking in as much to casino hotels? I probably just use them as like emergency stays or if I need some quick rest or like a quick shower? But if I was able to use my tub at home, I would not be checking into as many Casino hotels. But the access that it gives me to what I want to do, is good too so I may be checking in a lot I don't know. And I've definitely learned to not fight my insomnia because it makes it worse. And I definitely have a lot of you know sticky notes and to do things that I got to do because sometimes I have so many things that I need to do because I'm having to do everything by myself, you know even something as simple as what exactly I should have for lunch or dinner and do not have anything bad for lunch or dinner because it starts to wear me down and it starts to cause problems for me so I have to like remember to not have that Indian or Thai curry again because I really have a liking to tie or Indian food sometimes and when I'm looking at the menu and there's like a curry list? I will nine times out of 10 get the curry as well as a soup. So as of last week I crossed the carryout. And so I'm only going to have Curry probably like once every two weeks. And instead I'm going to have something like healthier. And I realize yesterday that I have not had any kind of red meat for a really long time and my body was feeling a little bit weird? So I felt like I wanted to see if it was because I had not consumed any red meat for a long time. So I went to a Korean barbecue even though I really didn't even perform as well as I should have but I did perform well enough to meet the minimum requirements to go and treat myself to a Korean bbq. So I went ahead and spent like what 50 bucks or something on Korean BBQ and I had the least fattiest cuts of Red meat. And weird enough, about 4 or 5 hours later probably when the red meat was starting to digest well, suddenly I felt like my body was really strong and I didn't feel sick or shaky? And I saw really healthy! So I assumed that maybe it was because of the red meat. And you know all of the iron and stuff like that going into me. You know the iron supplements don't cut it for me. They're not working as well as red meat works but you can't have red meat all the time because it's cancerous or you know what I mean? But you can't like cut out red meat from your diet completely I feel like I can't. I've already tried going over a month! Without steak or grass-fed ground beef, and I had to like constantly feed myself sodium or candy or something to level out the tiredness that I was feeling. so I think maybe it's the red meat but I'm not sure exactly but yesterday, after I was finally able to eat red meat, I felt like a lot better so I think maybe I'm going to include red meat like once a week maybe? I'm not sure if once a week is enough I don't know! Everyone is saying that red meat is really bad for you so that's why I've been leaving it out! You know you listen to people and it ends up being more harmful for you. But you don't listen to people and it either harms you or it helps you! I'm really trying to like form my own value system and my own opinion and my own perception of things on my own without the influence of people you know what I mean? Because like they're telling you the red meat is bad for you and not to eat any kind of red meat but then you don't eat red meat and you feel sick and weak. I think maybe just like the less fattier cuts of red meat might have to be included in my diet maybe once or twice a week might be good. And and I'm going to have to continue to stress manage myself. I really don't want to waste my money on some of these really bad shows in vegas. There was only like one or two shows that I really liked and that was it. The other one was a complete waste of my $300! 300 damn dollars for nothing. It was like them going into a swimming pool and doing a bunch of acrobatics inside of the pool with the same pool throughout the whole show. Complete waste of my $300. I don't even know why you know what I mean that's why you cannot get carried away with the over excitement and the highness that a lot of people try to cause. They're trying to overexcite you and they're trying to freak you out and they're trying to like make these songs that are going to freak you out and stuff like it's like when you're over excited like that, you might overlook the realness of a factoid that you need to be able to live your life. So sometimes you know you calm down and come in like it ain't a party. You come in like it's not a party. But some people want to come in like it's a party and you know sometimes that's fine when it's like a nightclub or when it's an actual party party like someone's birthday or someone's anniversary or something like that or New Year's eve. But when it's not New Year's Eve, you need to be able to like calm down and come in like it's not New Year's eve. Not every day is going to be New Year's eve. You know what I mean? So I'm really trying my best not to over excite and freak myself out and it's not like too difficult because all I have to do sometimes is just shut off the music. And when shutting off the music does not stop the overexcitement, I know that there's a problem that I'm not seeing. If stopping the music does not cause you to start getting real and to stop being crazy and over-excited? Then it's not the music. It's something else. So sometimes like for me looking at animals like free roaming animals like I might come across a duck when I'm walking on the strip? Or some other Bird that's flying around somewhere or someone's dog? Sometimes like looking at pets like out in the open well they're not actually pets because they're not confined to someone's house but you know what I mean. I think like if there were more some kind of animal enclosure on the strip that's like you know out in the open and for people to see might be kind of call me but then again you know we are talking about Las Vegas and they're not going to want to put something that's going to help somebody or something that's going to calm somebody down or something. This is like the city of excitement. So because they are my challengers. They're basically challengers. I wouldn't go so far as calling them my enemies? Because quite simply, they are legally trying to capitalize in a capitalist country. And you know and they're trying to capitalize as best as they can. And I'm also trying to capitalize as best as I can. So I wouldn't necessarily trying I wouldn't necessarily call them my enemies. No because an enemy would be someone overseas that like doesn't like the United States and stuff like that. But because I was born here into a capitalist economy where we are flooded with opportunists everywhere. These people are very much opportunist. Wherever there is an opportunity to capitalize, they're going to try to be all over it. So Vegas essentially is not any more different than the average american. Which means that you know you can't really consider them my enemies. They're more like challengers. You know someone who's going to kind of like put you through something or try to put you through something to get something either from you or from somebody. And it's kind of like that's what happens when you live in this kind of country with this kind of economy is that it's not just Las vegas! So you have to understand that at the very least. And to blame Vegas or to hate Vegas could be like you would only be hating yourself. You know because if you are a real American you know, you also realize that to be an America is like chasing after the American dream or coming into this country for the American dream etc etc. You know that's why a lot of people from Mexico come here because they're looking for the American dream. That's why people from different countries come to America because they're chasing after the American dream. So to hate Las Vegas would be like hating one of those people. I hate Las Vegas would be like hating yourself as well as your parents as well as your brothers and sisters because you know deep down inside, even your parents as well as your siblings are also chasing after that paper. So I think one of my biggest things about Las Vegas is that I absolutely must not hate Las vegas. You can't have a deeply embedded hatred for Las Vegas in order to be living here successfully. Because there is a part of me that actually there's a large part of me that actually think didn't work at all! That's vs that Las Vegas and Nevada is very beautiful! So I don't really actually hate Las vegas! There's a lot to really like about Las Vegas the architecture and the sunrises and the mountains and I've never had a desert life before. And the weather doesn't have any humidity and there's actually a lot of nice people here and some of those nice people at work in the casinos and they're just working because it's work. You know they have to do their job you know what I mean if they're going to work in a casino, that's what they're going to do. That's what they want to do so that's what they're doing. I've tried going through life in Las Vegas with a daily hatred for casinos. And it didn't work. It only hurt me more and it stressed me out more because I was waking up every day with a constant hatred for Las Vegas and that didn't work at all because to be waking up hating Las Vegas is waking up hating where you live. And I don't want to hate where I live! I want to love where I live because I want to be happy and I want to be thankful for living here and being safe as well as having a place because that apartment basically gave me a second chance because there's no apartment that's going to invite me and to accept me right at this moment in time. So you know there's a lot to be thankful for and I definitely do not want to wake up everyday hating where I live because that's not good. So I've come to accept that even though it was difficult at first. It is difficult because when you're also trying to do other things at the same time in Las Vegas and you're not succeeding, it's easy to hate where you live. And then third, it's like regular life. There's actually a very quiet life that is seemingly normal outside of the Vegas strip. With children playing and people walking their dogs and Uber and taxis and people grocery shopping for example. You know it's like everyday life that's just normal living. Except it's in Las vegas. And you know like I said the downtown and the economy here is completely different from what everyone is probably used to. But I think there are visitors that realize that the economy here and the way of life is definitely completely different from what they've ever seen before in their lives! I think that there are a lot of visitors and Taurus that know that and they realize it. So they don't try to come here to get wasted and to do bad things and to vandalize and stuff like that because I think deep down inside what's going on is that, they realize that the way of life here is completely different and they're considering and they're realizing that there are people that live here in vegas. And so they kind of like you can tell because they kind of like step really carefully and they walk around kind of real watchful but they're also walking around I can tell looking for people that might be the residents or that might be locals that might be like also professional players? And they're kind of like oh you know okay that might be one of those people you know what I mean? It's not like that big of a deal but like I'm sure there are people that respect the fact that it is a completely different way of life here. And I respect that that they respect that. I think that's amazing and good because you can't have like a judgment and you can't criticize somebody because you know they were born here and it's not like it was their fault that Vegas happened. You know what I mean? So and even if Vegas wasn't here, there's also you know lottery and there's also those scratch tickets it doesn't have to be a casino that there's going to be people gambling or playing something for money. You know you can look at California lottery and blame them for ruining lives you know chasing after the billions of dollars that they're giving out? You know they also got Texas lottery and they got Colorado lottery and you know and the scratch tickets and stuff like that? And you got bingo parlors and you got poker rooms and got you know stuff like that so having Vegas around isn't something that's unheard of. But I like really thinking about like different things when I'm living here and I got some free time aside from what I'm trying to do, and it seems like I have a lot of free time but, there's a lot of things that goes on in my life. There's a lot of things that I have to do and that I like to do and I try to keep up with my exercise I try to get my minimum steps I tried to get my sunlight I try to get the proper foods I tried to pay my bills on time I tried to prepay my bills sometimes you know I'm trying to go to sleep not too late but sometimes it doesn't work. I tried to do my money management and I tried to do my plane and I try to do my performing and I tried to do my analyzing and I tried to do my living and I tried to do my stress Management and I tried to get the hang of those things at the very least. Because I realized that I'm all on my own over here and to give up would be to die and have to be able to get a hang of those things. I have to be able to do those kinds of basic things easily and also more importantly without complaint. I'm going to have to not complain about those things. Cuz even if I complain that doesn't mean that someone's going to come for free and be like okay I will do those things for you and I will be your slave and stuff like that unless I make that much money and I'm able to have a personal assistant or something. Obviously I'm not rich enough to have a personal assistant to remind me to do those things and to order my food and to get stuff delivered to my door when I need it and stuff like that. I have to order the stuff on Amazon and I have to be there to make sure that it doesn't get stolen. And I haven't done that for a long time. I haven't been completely on my own for a long time. I had to have some help or I was in a treatment center which basically is like providing help sort of. But like being completely on my own doing things on my own I haven't done in a really long time. So like it's like a crash course you know out of nowhere type of thing but not really out of nowhere because this is what I asked for right? This is what I kind of initially had planned but I mean I didn't plan it for it to be like this crazy but things are definitely real I'm getting real and getting real and you know definitely you know it'll get easier the more I repeat them and the more I do things without complaint and you know skin care washing my hair so it doesn't stink everywhere I go. You know some small things like using the right conditioner for my hair type to all kinds of things! So and I haven't lived in the West Coast or West part of America for a really long time and there are definitely are certain personalities that live here. You know the different types of West America personalities different from south or Midwest people. As well as the gigantic and massive influx of visitors almost on a daily basis. Oh my gosh sometimes when I am going outside or even inside, and there is a giant flood of people. Whether it be from a conference or whether it be from a show that just got out or whether it be from just the nightly crowd that's here in vegas? Sometimes man oh my gosh. Oh my gosh like it just I've never seen that many people in my life ever in my life. And to do this like almost every day it requires definitely a very strong had strong emotions strong sense of self and who I am and also at the same time a strong sense of my weaknesses as well as my flaws as well as my abilities as well as my strengths. To be in a constant state of being around thousands and thousands of people everyday? You have to be like strong. Or you don't have to be strong you just ignore it. But I'm not trying to focus on the crowds. I'm not trying to get bombarded and trying to get harassed and annoyed by the thousands of people that are here. I've got my own thing going on and I'm trying to do that. So but sometimes when I get lonely in my apartment, I really like to go and be around the massive amount of people that are here. I feel like I could never get lonely but at the same time I do get lonely. Probably because I don't have my own boyfriend to hold hands with and to cuddle and fall asleep with and to go see shows with and to go have nice dinners with and stuff like that. That's one thing that really breaks my heart sometimes is that when I'm pass by like these really nice restaurants or there might be a show or something or something like that and I don't have anybody to go with and but then I just realized it's just a restaurant and it's just a show. And then I will be so sad anymore! I won't be so sad anymore. But I mean it is hard when you're always around you know some super nice places or like a super nice club or go to a show by yourselfand you want to like be there with somebody that loves you and you want to be there that you love them and you're in a relationship and you're like looking at each other and you're having a conversation and stuff like that. So sometimes it's hard to be able to control sometimes the disappointment that comes when you're passing by these things or what you see advertisements for them or when you see people going to them with their significant others or with their boyfriends and stuff like that but I know that there are things that I have to do at least for the time being that may or may not be more important. You know because obviously those things you know require like nice clothes and nice jewelry and perfume which I ran out of and I need to order my perfume but it's $100 a bottle and requires you to do your hair and your nails nice and have nice shoes and stuff like that so in order to buy those things and have those things, you have to be able to have money. And I know that if I wanted to I can buy those things but what I want to do is I want to be able to do things correctly and perform right to where I can go on a shopping spree I'd be able to buy those things on my own using the money that I got from performing well. You know what I mean? I don't know why I'm being like that to myself but I feel like I think it would be a really fun time if I could do it that way. I think it would be really fun and so far I haven't been able to I haven't been able to get beyond a $5 souvenir wallet from the f****** gift store. And I know some of these people are looking at my purses in my wallet to see what kind of wall and I'm holding and what kind of luxury s*** that I have. I can see their f****** faces and their eyeballs with their glancing over at me. So don't think you're trying to be smooth and trying to look away from me and pretend you like you're not looking at me or my merchandise. I know you're trying to look at what I have or what I own. I'm really trying my hardest to like be able to upgrade but having to do everything on my own and getting all my boyfriend stolen by white whores, that doesn't help either! You know what I mean while these f****** white b****** that stole my f****** boyfriends are cuddling with my exes and living a happy peaceful life and doing what they want to do and sleeping well as well, I'm struggling at 4:00 in the morning not being able to sleep. Alone. I don't want to just date some kind of ugly scuzz bag. Did I find that f****** insulting because I do find that insulting because why don't they date the ugliest guys bag? I don't see them dating the ugly scuzz bag? Why are they telling me to date the ugly guy? You know because you know why because they're assholes and their b******. That's what f****** b****** do is that they only allow themselves to date the hot guy but for someone like me, they want me to date the ugly guy or they want me to date the fat guy or someone that's f****** rejected? That's what you call a f****** b****. I'm not dating the f****** ugly scuzz bag you f****** b****. But what I'm saying is that, you know life can be full of flowers and roller coasters stuff like that. You know and it's like we all have happiness at some point and sadness. And can be settled in the peaceful maybe manner. You know and I really think that it's lunch time but I'm not sure what I want to have for lunch because everything around here is expensive but that's okay because that just means I need to perform better! How am I going to get that diamond ring well actually I'm looking at a diamond watch. How am I going to get that diamond watch if I don't perform correctly? You know what I mean I've been eyeballing this diamond watch that's at this one Casino store, and they got this diamond well it's not just one diamond watch but it's like a whole set of diamond watches from one brand. And nobody is ever in that store! So I'm trying to be there first customer! I would really like to be that store's first customer because I feel like, that watch would look really good on me. I'm talking like I have the risk for it. I am a watch person and I meant to say I have the wrist for it. I have that wrist for a diamond watch. The specific diamond watch that I've been looking at for over a year. So hopefully with my $5 today, I can somehow turn that $5 into you know something to wear I can go get that diamond watch finally. You know I have high hopes and you know it may be a mountain to climb but ain't no mountain high enough you know what I mean? To keep me from coming to that store and getting that watch. I think that watch would look perfect on my wrist and I'm hoping by the end of this month or this year and at the latest this year, I will be able to get that watch. And next year I'll be able to work on a different goal but last year's goal was a certain thing from a certain luxury store and I failed. I failed and I was unable to get that thing from the luxury store. So this year I'm aiming higher because maybe I didn't aim high enough, by the end of this year I'm going to get that diamond watch. Whether you like it or not and whether anyone likes it or not. By the end of this year? I'm going to purchase that diamond watch that I've been looking at for over a year. At that one store inside of this one Casino that's been having no customers and I'm going to be there first customer for that watch! And then next year I'll have a different goal but this year I'm hoping it's like a side reward for a job well done, I go into next year with that diamond watch. You know cuz I need to be able to tell the time and I need to have something to be able to read time with and I think that diamond watch is perfect. I mean what better way to read time then from a diamond watch you know what I mean? I mean that's like the perfect way to read time is by looking at your wrist and you know you got like 1:00 p.m. showing surrounded by 25 or 14 karat gold diamonds and it says 1:00 p.m. right there on your wrist. You know what I mean? I mean that would be the best way to tell time. So I think that I mean to go get that diamond I need to work on getting a diamond watch that's going to cause all kinds of moves and I need to be able to do it quick. I need to be able to bang it out. I need to be able to bang bang I mean I need to be able to move quickly. Like I really don't want to get out of this bed right now but I need to eat. I need to be able to eat and then I need to be able to perform and then rest and then manage my stress man in my stress and get out of bed and do itit too.